- To have a sense of what I want to do with my life, work wise; I just have no clue. And hell, fun-wise, too, I'm too often feeling at a loose end.
- To be able to talk to people. Other people seem to have a knack for "conversation," "introducing themselves," "making friends" or "meeting people"; all of the above would be nice, but I score 1 of 4 at best. Alone is fine, always lonely is not.
- To not always feel quite so down on myself. I've had friends tell me this is the most annoying thing about me (apart from being English), and y'know? If you think it is annoying for those around me, have a care for how bad it is for me. Also, I'm pretty sure this one feeds both 1 and 2, thus exacerbating an already bad situation.
Just about everything I could realistically wish for could come from those three little things.
Without any of them? Well... I've been in this rut for years already.